photographed by Tian Gebing
孔雀之肺
“我们都有以偏离的方式来表达我们的感受和看法的习惯，而且我们很快就把它们误认为是现实本身 ”。Meike Rötzer在她为“她的脸”表演所准备的文本里一开始引用了阿兰-德波顿的这句话。
曾是戏剧演员的Meike Rötzer，后来去了电视台工作，再后来又转行出版社，几个“后来”之后的现在，她开始了自己“声音书”的事业。在这些“工作”，“身份”，“事业”的变化交叠中，留下的是相互映射相互偏离的一层层人生的重影。如何分辨哪些是叠影，哪些又是现实本身？如果没有答案，我们是不是可以爱上这种“偏离”？从有声有色的表演，到有型无声的文字，再到只是声音，只是声音的回荡和唤起，在记忆里！
Meike Rötzer的文本关于一场失火。那场深夜火灾后，她所有的书都被烧毁。对于“书在哪里，家就在哪里”的Meike Rötzer，这场大火是一次失去家园的沉痛经历。曾经的生活，知识，记忆的一整个世界消失在书的“尸体”里。“图像消失了，很快就被遗忘了。思想的价值是什么？纸是纸，书是书。一本烧毁的圣经是否比一本漫画书更有价值？”。Meike Rötzer从此不再买书，而是“要努力把语言变成自己的，不是在书里，让语言如磁场般吸附弥散”，无法印刷，也因此不可焚烧。
Meike Rötzer的文本由那场火灾的警察调查报告，消防记录和保险公司表格这些记录式材料构成。这些冰冷生硬无体征的记录文字，犹如失火后的废墟骨架，也是问题的骨架。当这些骨架，这些问题被再次捡拾，如记忆重影的晃动——在Meike家的两个平行书房里，被Meike Rötzer和她妹妹Maren Schlüter 二重奏般的问出来，读出来时，顿时逼真和鲜艳。“这盏灯就是这盏灯，问得越多，我看到它的光芒就越耀眼。启动它？灯。我越想这个词，它就越弯曲，变成橡胶，像洗衣机一样融化。像洗衣机一样融化。是的，是那盏灯，是的，我让它燃烧。”
这是“她的脸”的第七场景，Susanna悼念中国诗人张枣的文字被装载在Meike的记录文本里，仿佛另一个重影的加入，“我奇怪的肺转过来。像散开的孔雀，随心所欲地改变自己的光芒。不受监管。不可估量的。从欧洲无法看到孔雀星座的身影。孔雀星座位于南方的边缘。就像诗人在世界的边缘。但历久弥新”。
关于主人公
Meike Rötzer
1971年生于威斯特伐利亚。少年时，在美国交换一年后在Birklehof寄宿学校毕业。在慕尼黑奥托-法尔肯贝格戏剧戏剧学院学习表演。第一份演员工作在卡尔斯鲁厄国家剧院，后在基尔城市剧院工作四年。搬到柏林后，她在Sophiensælen和Theaterdiscounter的自由场景项目里表演，并在和一档电视节目签约一年半。此后又做了更多演员工作。她是两个孩子的母亲，2008-2022年在柏林Matthes&Seitz出版社任职小说编辑。合气道四段。2021年，她合作制作了播客项目《大自然》。2022年，她获德国有声书奖最佳女声优提名，同年成立Erzählbuchverlag“讲故事书”出版社。
表演 Meike Rötzer、Maren Schlüter、谢雨晨
关于其他表演者
Maren Schlüter
1973年生于威斯特伐利亚。少年时在英国寄宿交换一年，在比勒费尔德市高中毕业。留学巴黎，后在科隆学习民族学和罗曼语研究（ZP）。在埃森的福克旺艺术学院学习表演。以自由演员身份活跃于各大城市剧院（科隆话剧院、鲁尔剧院、鲁尔英戈剧院、英戈尔施塔特剧院等），同时是表演团体“戏剧科隆”成员。受戏剧治疗和剧场治疗师培训（德国戏剧治疗协会认证）。2009-2012年产下两个孩子。目前作为临床戏剧治疗师工作，专攻身心科和成瘾问题，同时在戏剧治疗继续教育研究院任讲师。2021年起作为戏剧治疗师在科隆执业，并成立“坚强孩子协会”。
谢雨晨
1990年生于上海，毕业于德国普福尔茨海姆设计学院视觉传达专业。此后加入斯图加特布鲁克纳设计事务所Atelier Brueckner, 2016 - 2019年就职期间参与了深圳城市规划博物馆、深圳珠宝博物馆和海尔世界家电馆博物馆的展示设计工作。
同时，他深入的学习古典吉他与现当代舞。2021年起就读于柏林艺术大学舞蹈与编舞专业。
Peacock's Lungs
‘We are all in the habit of expressing our feelings and opinions in deviant ways, and we are quick to mistake them for reality itself’ - Alain de Botton.
Meike Rötzer, who hosts Episode Seven of "Her Face“, was a stage actress, later she worked in television, then as an editor in a publishing house. Now, after a few shifts, she has been building her audiobook career. In the changing and interweaving of different jobs, identities and career paths, what is casted on the page is the doubles and reflections of life decisions that mirror each other, that deviate from one another. How can one tell the doubles from realities?When no answer can be found, would we simply fall in love with the ‘deviated’? Visually and acoustically formed theatre performance morphed to silent but graphed text lines, which then morphed to the pure wavelength of voice, echoing, evoking, in the landscape of mnemosyne.
The inspiring Narrative for Episode Seven is one about a fire. A late night fire took all Meike's books. The integral world composed of life stories, knowledge and memories disappeared in the corpse of the books. ‘The images disappeared, soon forgotten. What is the value of ideas? Paper is paper and a book a book. Is a burnt Bible more valuable than a comic book?’ Meike Rötzer since then instead ‘strives to make language her own, not in a book, but to restore language to a diffusing magnetic field', unprintable, thus unignitable.
Documentary materials enhance Meike's storytelling, such as police reports, insurance forms and news cutouts. These cold factual texts resemble the architectural structure laid bare by fire, as well the structure of the official questioning. When the structure and the questions are again picked up, jumping and flickering as if the doubles of memories - in the two study rooms parallel to one another in Meike's apartment, picked up and voiced out by the sororal duo of Meike Rötzer and Maren Schlüter, they turn lively and vivid. ‘The lamp the lamp the lamp, the more he asks, the brighter I see it shining. Did I leave it on? The lamp. The more I think the word, the more smoothly it bends, becomes rubber, melts like the washing machine. Yes, it was the lamp, yes, I left it on.’
This is Episode Seven of "Her Face” series, where Susanne Göße's text on the Chinese poet Zhang Zao is reloaded in Meike's records and documents in analogy to the performative double, ‘My strange lungs, like spreading peacocks. They change their radiance as they please. Unregulated. Immeasurable. The constellation of peacock cannot be seen from Europe. The constellation of peacock lies at the edge of the south. Like the poet at the edge of the world. But it remains through the ages.’
About the Protagonist
Meike Rötzer
Born in Westphalia in 1971. After one-year exchange to the US she passed her Abitur at the Birklehof boarding school. She went to Otto Falckenberg School for acting. First engagement at the Badisches Staatstheater Karlsruhe, then four years at the Städtische Bühnen Kiel. After moving to Berlin, she had acting roles in various productions at the Sophiensælen and at the Theaterdiscounter as well as a 1,5-year fixed engagement in a television production. Further roles followed. She gave birth to two children, was Editor for Fiction at Matthes&Seitz Publishing Berlin 2008-2022 . Aikido 4th Dan. In 2021 she worked on podcast production Naturerkunden. In 2022 she was nominated for the German Audiobook Award in the category Best Female Performer. In the same year she founded the Erzählbuchverlag (story telling publishing house).
With Meike Rötzer, Maren Schlüter, Xie Yuchen
About collaborating performers
Maren Schlüter
1973 grew up in Westphalia. After a one-year stay at a boarding school in England, Abitur in Bielefeld. Stay abroad in Paris, followed by studies in ethnology and Romance studies in Cologne (ZP). Studied acting at the Folkwanghochschule in Essen. Active as a freelance actress, both at municipal theaters (Schauspiel Köln, Theater a.d. Ruhr, Theater Ing. a.d. Ruhr, Theater Ingolstadt, etc.) as well as in the performance group Drama Cologne. Training as drama and theater therapist (DGfT reg.). Birth of the two children 2009-2012. Employed as a clinical theater therapist in psychosomatic and addiction. Lecturer at the ITT (Institute for Further Education in Theater Therapy). Since 2021 own practice in Cologne and foundation of the association "Starke Kids" e.V.
Yuchen Xie
Born in 1990, firstly studied visual communication at the University Pforzheim - School of Design. Then he spent from 2016 till 2019 at the interdisciplinary design studio Atelier Brückner in Stuttgart, where he worked with architects, curators and designers on projects such as the Shenzhen Urban Planning Museum, Shenzhen Jewellery Museum and Haier World Home appliance Museum. At the same time, he is intensively involved with studying classical guitar and contemporary dance. Since 2021, he has been studying dance and choreography at the University of the Arts Berlin.